A Mommy Mistake ;-(

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Kemaren, dikritik hubby hikss..
waktu gue ngajarin Isya story telling dalam rangka story telling contest kelasnya…

he said, “You’re putting your high ambition on her”
naturally I said, “AM NOT!, this is for her own good because I know she has talent here.”

the minute I said that,
I know he’s right
(bad mama mode on hiks)

and when Isya said, “I dont wanna do this anymore!”

I definitely know he’s right.
glekk…

So I stopped.

On our way to school,
gue ngajakin Isya ngobrol-ngobrol, and I just say, “Sya, wanna hear mommy’s version of the story?”
Isya bilang, mauuuu..
okay..
so I told her in a fun way (she’s doing the Three Lil Pigs and A Big Bad Wolf by the way).

I said,”Sya, ntar kalo Isya ngomong I’ll huff and I’ll pufff…Isya tiup yang kenceeeng gitu yaah ke temen-temen, pasti temen-temen pada ketawa dehh!”

she laughed and agreed;-)

Okay everything’s back to normal.

Nyampe sekolah, I walked her up to her class soalnya bawa story telling prop nya yang we made together…trus ngobrol2 ama Bu Erna, her class teacher.

Tiba-tiba,
Isya keluar dari kelas dengan muka pucet and said,
“Mommy, I’m shy”…

My reaction?
Pat her in the back…and just say,
“Nooo you can do it, trust me!”..

Isya masuk balik ke kelas dengan muka (hmm..kalo orang minang bilang tuh “cameh” hehe apa yaa bahasa indonesianya? worried gituu..

truss gue pulang…
5 menit dalam mobil
I kicked myself in the..uhmm head..(kan sambil mikir ceritanya)

Duuuhh Naaaddd…
your baby is worried because u pushed her to do something with your standards!!  And gue nggak ngomong sesuatu yang bikin dia tenang saat dia ngadu!!

hiks…aslii..I almost cried in the car..
langsung puter balik ke sekolahannya isya lagi…
parked the car…almost run to her class…

Ketok pintu kelasnya Isya..dadah ke gurunya
(hehe hubungan orangtua-guru yang akrab kan ceritanya)…trusss..Isya keluar.
and I asked her:

are you still shy??
yes, she said sadly.

and I held her hands and said,
“Isya ntar story tellingnya yang fun aja ya nak…terserah kok mau Isya ceritain dengan gaya gimana…terserah isya..apapun yang Isya lakukan nanti..mama bakalan seneeeng dan bangga banget”…

pokoknya terserah Isya…yaa..just have fun
jangan pikirin mama ya nak..

Isya ngangguk with a little smile.
 ”bener yaah terserah isya kok…mama seneeeeng semua yang Isya lakukan”

I have to let her know..
I will never never ever be disappointed in her insyaAllah…

kissed her on the cheek and watched her go back inside.

Dalam mobil I pray,
“Ya Allah please let her be happy…”

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Pulang sekolah Isya dijemput Grandpanya
soalnya gue ada meeting diluar…

When I arrived, masuk kamar,
with a big smile on her face she jumped up and down,
“I’m in the Final!!”

whoaaa…

“Bener nih Sya? juara berapa?”,
(duileee Naadd…tetep aja ngarep anaknya juara hehe)…

“Satu” she said proudly…

And I hugged her..

bukan karena I’m proud dia juara satu…
bukan karena dia masuk final..
bukan karena her english is sooo cool hehe..

but because I just love her soo much..
because I made a mistake as a mom…
I should just be there for her…insyaAllah…

notes:
Isya trus ngomong gini
“Mommy ..mommy..you are sooo right!
I huffed at my friends and they all laughed!!
ow, thank you so much for the tips!!

qiqiqiqiqq….
yup..that’s my Isya!